Thursday, June 18, 2009

Crying


My sister at Poppie's knee, me in his lap.)
Today was my the two year anniversary of my Poppie's death. I was so thankful to be able to spend a part of it with my mother. Crying isn't nearly as cathartic when you do it alone. I wish my sister had been there to join in. She's a great cryer...and a pretty one too... I made a great mess when I cry but not her....her tears roll down her cheeks in perfect droplets...like Demi Moore cried in Ghost.
(My sister with Poppie ...)

I cried today....because I miss my Poppie. And I want so badly to hear his voice again...the raspy crackle, the deep baritone....the slow way he would built into a story...his laugh. I miss him. I wasn't going to to do a post about him today. But without thought I sat down and wrote this ...because some part of me needed to tell the world that on this day my family lost someone they loved. We try not to mourn, to cherish the time we had... but knowing that it has been two years since we last saw a very dearly loved father, grandfather, uncle, brother and friend...that, I think, entitles us to a few tears.

I hope the fishin' is good where you're at, Pops! Miss you.

6 comments:

  1. I am so sorry for the loss of your poppie! I know how hard it is, and all the memories come flooding back!
    You had me in tears reading this!
    A wonderful tribute to your pops!!

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  2. Great pics, C. Thinking of you today!

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  3. I'm sorry too! I miss my Grandpa something fierce but don't think I am strong enough yet to do a post about him...my two year anniversary is coming up this fall.....((sigh))

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  4. What a nice tribute, it really makes you think how important family and good friends are. I think he was very lucky to have such a thoughtful and strong granddaughter like you.
    Barb oxoxoxo

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  5. It hurts like hell to lose the people that you love. I know just how you're feeling. I lost my grandma, then my dad, and then 3 years ago, my mom. Life will never be the same, or as good. I still miss them so much it hurts.
    Your poppie sounds like he was wonderful. I'll bet he lived life just exactly like he wanted to live it! And, you're a better person for having him as your very own grandpa. Beautiful tribute to a beloved man. ((hugs to you))

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  6. I am glad you decided to share your thoughts on your Poppie with us! I know that pain your feeling, I lost my dad almost 4 years ago and my grandpappy 13 years ago...I always wonder if it ever gets any better...

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