Take a listen to: "I dont want to be loved, by anybody but you..." by Jewel.
Please excuse the advertisement before the video. Jewel is speaking to me tonight, not so much in words, other than the "you may call me foolish" part :) but in her tone and emotion. Thank you all, once again for you comments. I need time, so I am going to take it. I am looking into other options and am trying to give him my best shot. One of the comments made by my friend, Browneyed Cowgirls, keeps pulling at my heart strings and taking my mind away from my own feelings and concerns. Her words, "Bless his damaged heart, he has nothing left to give..." were a reminder that there is a soul in that horse, that thinks and feels, and deserves to be considered in his own right. I know what to do. But my heart simply refuses to accept it. I simply cant. I simply must. There is nothing simple about this at all.